It's been Awhile, huh?

So Me and Derrick broke up. Uhh twice. Now were done for good. I love and him no matter what. I started dating Zach. He's a meth head. It didn't work to put it simply. Now I'm dating my ex Mac. And I'm happy with that. ALthough those feelings for Derrick have not faded, the feelings for mac never really did either. So tell me. What do you do when your in love with one guy, who broke your heart, and you never lost feelings for the sweetest guy in the world, but you don't quite love him.

1/

Somewhere along the lines, bestfriends just became more.

2/

People like you more when you don't give a fuck.

3/

Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life.

3/

I’ll love you, dear.
I’ll love you till China and Africa meet and the river jumps
over the mountain and the salmon sing in the street

You have every reason to, for all the things I do

I know that none of you know me, but I want to tell you that I am the dumbest person alive. I take everything for granted. I do the stupidest things, because I am not thinking. I am selfish. I am not the person that I have ever wanted to be. I want to make people proud to know me. But I cn't lie, I would not be proud to know me. I would not want to be friends with me...

01.

I have secrets that I can never tell a soul,

But every one involves you.

02.

I know one day you'll have a beautiful life, I know one day you will be th esun in someone elses sky.

03.

I smile for many reasons, but you'll always be my favorite

04.

I know it meant nothing, I know it will never be anything, Just promise to never forget me.

05.

I guess, you mean less to me than I mean to you, But i mean so little to you.

06.

Lets be nothing, I heard  rumor that it lasts forever, baby

I know it is short, but I have so much on my mind. Derrick, Ricky, Everything is too jumbled up.Derrick is better, being as Ricky is 22 almost, and I am 17. Jeez, People need to stop coming back into my life.And let me and Derrick be happy

I thought if I kept my distance, I would be okay

I am aware that I am only Seventeen, but me and my boyfriend talk about when we are going to ger married all the time. Last night me and Aaron, my  ex, were texting, and he broke it to me that he is going to propose to me at either his graduation next year, or mine the year after. I told him I would say yes. But that is mainly because I do not believe that he will do it. Derrick doesn't know that were becomming such great friends again, I am kind of scared to tell him, I won't lie.

01.

I've been running from this feeling for so long, that it's become a natural instinct to turn you down.

02.

Go ahead, leave me like you always do, I am prepared this time.

03.

The sooner you realize things can never be the same again, the sooner you can move on.

04.

You let go two years ago, now it's my turn, when I find happiness don't decide you love me.

short, no pictures, but I am hungry,

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Why do I put myself in these situations

I swear, I went to Appalachee graduation to see my ex Aaron. Knowing that I shouldn't because lingering feelings would come back. Well then tonight I went out to eat where he works, things are getting out of hand, how can I be in love with three people, Luckily Michael moved a few hours away, So honeslty he is already fading in my mind. And Derrick, well he is my whole world, but now Aaron comes along, wanting me back, he was the first guy I have ever loved. He was practically my first real kiss. I've been in love with him for two years, I thought I had moved on, apparently I do not let things go that easily...

01.

Why is it that, I hug you, and everything is perfect again

02.

I have sat around for seventeen years waiting on this beauty

03.

I am nervous, I am scared, do i do this for a thrill, or am I really that unhappy

04.

I will never be afraid to try something new, I am just afraid of doing the same stupid stuff

05.

Sometimes I wake at night and I ask "where have I gone?",
and a voice says to me "this is going to take more than one night".

06.

his absence feels like a violent loss of some part of me, a rib, a lung.

This is really short, and I am sorry, but tonight I need to lay down, and tonight I need to think.

Goodnight everybody

I love you Derrick, No matter what i say and do to you

Tonight was my older sister's graduation. It was so crazy, being as she was going to WBHS, but because of my behavior I went to JCCHS. But just going there, and seeing all the people who I love so much. It was amazing. And I am so incredibly proud of My sister and Jessica. I couldn't be more happy for them.

01.

People who belong together, Stay together.

02.

Now your my whole life, Now your my whole world

03.

I know i put you through a lot, and You know I still love him, But baby in the end it's only you for me.

04.

These eyes do not shine the way they used to, and they haven't for quite some time now.

05.

It's not that I still love him, or even care about him in the least. I just want him as  unhappy as he made me

06.

We sat, and talked about how happy we were with our new lives, but i kept praying you would kiss me again

07.

I know it was a short time, but in that short time I fell in in love with my bestfriend, and I never moved on

08.

I just want you to feel like you can't be without me.

I have such a horrible headache, I planned on making this longer.

But I think I am fixing to have brains on the outside,

Okay, my boyfriend thinks I "got my swag on"

haha, I love you guys,

And Derrick of course.